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[Nov. 25th, 2009|11:52 pm] |
kind of getting tired of going to your fb profile and see how you are doing.
I thought i was over you , aren't i ? But it feels like my heart is still there , with you.
Can I have it back .. ? |
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[Nov. 21st, 2009|01:24 am] |
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How i wish i can do something to make me feel better , from all the problems i caused and feelings i had . |
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[Nov. 14th, 2009|04:46 am] |
Something's missing in my life.
Neither did i blame you nor anyone else .
This is my life , I write my own story , I write my own future .
It's just that it's pretty upset when you commented on my status , which is referring to you . But you didn't realized it.
It's saddening.
But I just hope you are doing fine (:
Nothing much , I hoped . |
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[Nov. 11th, 2009|01:47 am] |
I'm sorry to B & R .
I will learn to control my emotions .
This is the least I can do .
But that's not the best I can do .
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(: ! |
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[Nov. 10th, 2009|01:58 am] |
2.4 run was tired . Stamina dropped , speed dropped . 13.15min ? it's like so disappointing -_-
It just sucks . haha
But i felt great even though it was damn tiring .
At least now i know how weak i am .
Looking at the changes that took place drastically .
Guess i will hold on to that smile , for now .
I can lose to anyone , but not to myself . |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2009|12:28 am] |
I told you I will be a friend who will be there for you , and ask for nothing in return. but why do I always feel neglected , why is this so ? sometimes I wonder what exactly are u thinking about , stress over about . I mean I do understand certain things but perhaps for just that one particular thing I can't figure out.
Sigh ..
And of course i will know what happen at Rebel , you were just standing beside me man .
It hurts so much to see you in that kind of situation and that , you were just in front of my eyes. And when I saw that expression on your face , my heart skipped a beat , I'm helpless and sorry .
I don't know what else can I say , but
God bless you .
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What hurts the most was being so close . |
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[Oct. 20th, 2009|11:44 pm] |
Went mia , lost contact with you for months. But recently , I seem to keep bumping into you .
And I wonder why would I always think of you when I'm at Cathay . I was at Cathay today with my friends. When I was about to leave for the bustop, as I walked , I was thinking "what if I see you here, at cathay . And just when I reached the bustop, I saw you , with Calvin . You waved at me , I didn't know how to react , only after like a couple of seconds , I gave a weak wave back . I guess it's been quite some time I felt this way , being in the same bus when you are just standing one seat beside me and me controlling myself not to look at you and blasting music trying to keep my mind off you . That bus ride home was the longest journey ever .
When I alight , you tapped my bag and said byebye , perhaps I could have said something more pleasant . But I didn't , I said bye without even turning and take a look at you ..
I make my way home , we were a street apart, I turned back and look at you , wondering what was happening when both of you stopped and was talking ? , I guessed. And then both of you started to walk again . Zzz ? I remembered I looked back thrice. At that moment , I just hoped nothing happened .
Sometimes I wonder why am I always thinking of such things . This could have brought me down ..way in too deep ..
I know you will never get to see this , haa of course you won't , I didn't even give you my link . On second thoughts , I would put it this way , I would rather not ever let you know my diary .
But ya , I just wanted to apologise if I happened to come in between the both of you and causing arguments and stuffs. I'm sorry ..
I still remembered the day we were at Cathay .. |
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[Oct. 17th, 2009|12:24 am] |
Happy birthday to my brother , xiaoyuan (: Well done in your studies .
Happy birthday to you , peishan .
Everything's been fine I guess.
Busy with work , school and hanging out . *CLUB* ZZZ
Dont think will have any much time on other things , i HOPE .
perhaps .
maybe only .
you know u wont get to see this . but i hope u are doing fine . takecare , |
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[Oct. 15th, 2009|10:51 pm] |
My dad is jobless.
The world is crying.
Im aimless.
What more can I do now. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2009|01:07 am] |
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Im really sry my dearest friends that i kinda spread my flu to you all . getwellsoon all of you ! And we will work hard against all obstacles and soar into the sky !! |
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[Oct. 8th, 2009|11:41 pm] |
Everything looks so different now
perhaps everything is still the same , im the difference .
how can i soar when i havent even figure out what i want .
Time awaits no man .
what am i supposed to do , now . |
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[Sep. 22nd, 2009|11:31 pm] |
"I meant well" that's what everybody carry in their mouth . Never forgot one sia , " I meant well , dont worry " _|_ sometimes seriously cannot take it sia . ahyuan , you are doing it the wrong way . aiya how should i say it fuck sia . there's no right and wrong , but if u understand me , that's enough . For people like me , this way's not gonna work . you only make me much more feel like taking a hammer and smash all the glass windows that is use to create esplanade . Yes , I understand im a christian . im baptizED . But am i that bad ? you havent seen the worse. Oh no , you have seen the worst i think . that's what most of the people tell themselves so that will give them the confidence to convince others. -_- i know what im doing . so what if i have done something wrong . so what if im stubborn . so we must all change ah ? for the better ? fuck , what can be better . things are always going like after 1pm is 2pm . it's just the same what . can , sure do things can get better "if i want it to be , if only im willing " quoting from dont know where , heard it everywhere . im not doing good meh ? everytime ask me where's my money , how come use up so fast. you want to know why fast ? im not telling you . i worked so that i know if there's an emergency , i would have that spare cash. i worked so that i dont have to take extra allowance. i worked so that i dont rot at home . but seriously speaking , im happy when i work , the sense of satisfaction is there. actually my sister aint that bad . she's doing fine to me . what's with the fuss . wa fuck sia serious at times . feel like throwing everything down my house . I understand God is our saviour . Never ending love from him . God love us .
what's next ?
But yet , still i must salute you to this ahyuan. You've got the courage , you are brave and confident to start a conversation like this . |
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[Sep. 20th, 2009|10:16 pm] |
Sometimes i dont understand what's wrong with my family.
God taught you how to preach in this way uh ? or must relate everything to GOD .
fuck sia . |
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[Sep. 18th, 2009|03:47 am] |
Weird dreams nowadays .
Tired tired tired
work work work
hangout hangout hangout
spend money spend money spend money
sleep
mis. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2009|04:09 am] |
I will give my best to the ones around me .
Because
I can be alone . |
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[Sep. 7th, 2009|07:46 am] |
sometimes i dont even know what i want , what i need to pursue
always thinking im not good at anything , at all .
only know how spend my time joking and going crazy for no reason Zzz
what do i live for .
admire people who have things i dont have ,
admire them for the things they can do which i cant . |
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[Aug. 27th, 2009|01:46 am] |
You said I changed , did i ?
Perhaps I did , if not how do i say goodbye. |
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[Aug. 24th, 2009|11:43 pm] |
You talked to me on msn.
The first thing you told me , your boy is going to work tml.
Im not working tml , but ya we will sure see each other one day..
I apologised first if u feel offended in any ways.
But ya i know that your boy is going to work at the same place as me , why does it always seems like u are reminding me "not to quarrel with him" or other sorts of things. I promised you I wont do it , and you know me P.S . even if u didnt tell me about it , you know i will not be bothered by it , i mean "what for!?" .
Ya, like what u said , i had fun in sch . Yea indeed i had .
at least im busy having fun,
but
not something else.
why didnt u say rockers are sentimental , but instead of that , you said
"Rockers are scary"
actually, ya true . i admit i did shocked you.
im sry ..
what is it that u know about me?,
when u dont even know about this . |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2009|05:44 pm] |
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Why would i wanna do such things to him , to someone whom u deeply love. |
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[Aug. 21st, 2009|11:58 pm] |
Why do I exist
What do I live for
Who will I cry for
Am I who I Am
This is who we are .
We live to die another day . |
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